April 2008

Things to remember the next time I decide I am bored with my hair and want to cut it short:

At best it will look like Jennifer Anniston’s hair from the early Friends years, and at worst it will look like a brown version of Carrot Top.

That is all.


I’m back from Boston- the trip itself was kind of disappointing, actually, since apparently no one wants to talk to a young lawyer from a little fellowship in Chicago when representatives from the biggest fellowships in the country are sitting at the tables surrounding her- but it was a nice change of scenery at least.

The weather in Boston was beautiful while I was there, and I arrived about 2 hours before I had to go to my event. I was STARVING, so I wandered over to Newbury Street and got a table at a little outdoor patio to eat something. As I was waiting, three other groups entered the restaurant, got seated, received bread from the waitress, and received drinks, (one group even received their order) before anyone came over to my table.

Is this a phenomenon of dining alone? Do solo diners always get ignored because waiters assume they will have small check totals and thus small tips?

I have always admired people, women in particular, who are comfortable in their own skin and can sit, fabulous and confident, at a bar, nursing a martini, not a care in the world. (Admittedly, I mostly see these women in movies and on television, so maybe this is a fantasy?) I’ve been trying to become more comfortable with being alone in places where most people go with friends, and I have to say, it kind of sucks. If the friend I am meeting is running late, I want to feel comfortable walking into the bar, sitting down, ordering a drink, and waiting. But I don’t. The urge to avoid eye contact at all costs leads me to futz with my Blackberry or studiously read the specials list or stare at my hands. Is sitting alone at a bar or restaurant a lost art? In Boston, the combination of being outside, on display in my one-ness, and the waitress who insisted on virtually ignoring me was too much, and I found myself scarfing my salad in 5 minutes flat and beelining it out of there. Does anyone have suggestions for making this less awkward?

I am leaving today for (another) business trip to Boston. To make the trip affordable to the company, I am flying home late late Wednesday, even though my business will be done in early afternoon on Wednesday.  This leaves me with roughly 6 hours to kill in Boston.

It also appears, finally, to be almost spring, and my feet are totally unprepared.

This leads me to an ethical question. Pedicure on company time: wildly unprofessional or totally reasonable under the circumstances?


Going to an art opening tonight.  With an old old friend and his new girlfriend who is an expert about art.

I know nothing about art.

“Ooh, pretty” doesn’t seem like it’s going to cut it, does it?  “What is THAT?” sounds even less promising.

Quick, give me something to say about art that will make me sound curious and open and interested without making me sound like a total novice idiot or a total know-it-all blowhard.

OMG you guys my neighborhood is SO DANGEROUS. I don’t mean gunshots, or carjackings, or the sale of tiny-yet-still-felonious amounts of marijuana, or even teenagers with saggy pants in menacing groups of as many as two or three walking down the street…

I mean jungle cats.

John and I were running in our neighborhood yesterday before work (I KNOW! I don’t know how it happened either! We have never run before work before, and will likely never again. But let the record reflect that for one brief day in April, we were healthy and fit.) Running by the elementary school, we saw five news vans, the kind with the portable satellites on top so they can report “live from the field.” There were heavily made-up field reporters standing in front of cameramen wielding bright lights, filing reports for the 7am newscast.

My first thought was that something horrible had happened at the school, and I worried that a student had been killed, or some suspicious stranger had broken in and acted shady around the kids or something. We didn’t stop, though. We made a mental note to look at the local news when we got home, then promptly forgot all about it.

Until I got this text from John:

I figured out why all the news vans were by the school. Last night the police shot a wild cougar who was roaming around the neighborhood. (Cougar as in big cat, not middle-aged woman with fake boobs and short dress.)

Amazing, right? Mountain lion, in my decidedly non-mountainous neighborhood! My neighborhood was in the New York Times! Putting aside the (surprisingly heated) discussions of “did the police do the right thing,” and “did the majestic cat have to die?” I just have to say: we clearly risked our lives when we took that run through our ‘hood. The only logical conclusion here is that running is dangerous and should be avoided at all costs.

I think I’ve mentioned before my issues with eavesdropping. If I’m in a public place (restaurant, subway, random street corner) and I hear someone having a loud conversation it’s hard for me not to listen. (This results in John and I having a lot of fairly quiet dinners when we are in crowded restaurants because I am impossibly distracted by all the conversations going on around me.  He finds this habit of mine charming.)

As a result, I tend to be super-aware of my voice level in public, trying to avoid carrying on loud conversations, particularly about potentially sensitive or embarrassing topics, because I tend to assume that there’s probably someone like me nearby who will be listening.

A woman I work closely with falls dramatically on the other side of this spectrum- she is totally oblivious to those around her when she is in the middle of a conversation. This is usually fine when we’re, say, in her office, or in a café having lunch. It is less awesome when we are, for example, in the bathroom at work (5 stalls! Other people around! My squeamishness about bathroom convos has been documented before!) or riding together in an elevator. Elevators are particularly bad. When we are waiting for one, I’ll cross my toes inside my shoes, silently willing it to be empty when it arrives at our floor. Even if it is not, Loud Coworker will continue to have full-on conversation with me, often talking over the heads of other passengers in the elevator, while I try to limit myself to one word grunt answers and staring at my shoes in mortification.

Today, for example, we were leaving a meeting in a government building. We got on the elevator and Loud Coworker, totally oblivious to the 4 other people already in it, says “well, I think we really have to keep an eye on Margaret, because I’m not sure she has any idea what she’s talking about with this proposal. I think she’s just trying to make a dramatic suggestion to get in good with her boss.”

DUDE. Loud Coworker, do you see these other people in here? Isn’t it possible that one of the other people knows Margaret? Or knows her boss? Or IS her boss? A little discretion, please!

I recognize, though, that it’s possible (though TERRIFICALLY UNLIKELY since I am always right,) that I am being unreasonable. I spent ages 8 through 17 in a pretty constant state of blushing because of something or another that someone had done that was, like, so embarrassing, so it’s possible I’m a teensy bit oversensitive to these things.

So tell me, am I the weird one here? If you were riding on an elevator and a duo got on and continued to chatter away at full volume, would you try your best to tune them out, or would you listen just in case it got interesting?

True story:

Interviewing a gentleman yesterday as part of the work I’m doing at this high school, my eye is drawn to something sparkly. It is a pinky ring, the kind I have read about in stories about Italian gangsters but have never seen in real life- gold, thick, with a sizable diamond in the middle of it. It looks, in fact, a lot like an engagement ring, except it is on the pinky of the hand of a 70-something year-old gentleman.

As I start to look away from the pinky ring and back at the person I am interviewing, I notice something else. His nails are shiny. Really shiny. Unnaturally shiny. Like “coated in clear nail polish” shiny. Come to think of it, his hands look surprisingly well-kept in general: shiny nails, no visible cuticles, well-moisturized….when it hits me. Oh my god, this guy gets manicures. This 70-something year old man with his denim button down tucked into his high-waisted denim jeans, who is wearing cowboy boots, whose ruddy face looks much like that of a man who has spent a lot of time on a stool at his local pub, gets manicures. “Don’t judge, pseudo,” I say to myself. “There is nothing wrong with taking care of one’s hands. Try to stop staring. Stop. Look back at his face. Focus, pseudo!” Except- so *shiny*. I am transfixed. Do all men who get manicures opt for the clear nail polish? Is this like a normal thing? I am fascinated, and cannot look away from his shiny, well-moisturized hands as they gesture while he talks.

Suddenly, I notice he has stopped talking. He looks at me, tilts his head. “What are you looking at, young lady?”

“Um,” I say, panicking a little. “Your ring, sir. It’s lovely.”

“Thank you!” he says, beaming. He continues his story.

Add to the list of things I never thought I would say: thank god for pinky rings.

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